#4 of live recordings of embarrassing love songs i wrote long ago and never did anything with. this one is called “ugly” - i apologize for being warbly (i don’t want to sound like a big baby but i can’t sing this without crying so i’m not going to try again)
— Greg Behrendt (via sleepychick)
One boy really made me feel beautiful as a person. I was feeling sad and ugly when he suddenly told me, Hey, look at me, look at me in my eyes right now. Focus.
When you’re sad, you can get pushed around to do the things you normally wouldn’t do. He wasn’t physically close to me, but I felt an invisible shaking as though he were gripping my shoulders. I shyly looked up and into his eyes that I’d never clearly noticed before.
He said to me, You’re so, so, beautiful. You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. OK? I just need you to know that.
The details came later. The reasons why.
You have such a sincere heart. Imperfections that somehow seem perfect in their own way. The way you think. The way you speak. The words you write. The way you listen. You’re beautiful.
I thought I could live abstract - but I never knew how good it would feel to know the concrete reasons why I am loved.
Now he’s gone, and I’m writing this just to remember it. Because I am not feeling beautiful today.
I feel sick and twisted and talentless and ugly and plain.
And those words won’t come my way again.